blue lotus flower floating
Indigo Ethnobotany 002 - a medicine story of angelic presence & a monograph
salud y saludos! salute and salutations! good health and greetings!
it has been some time since I have shared thoughts and processes here, but the digital garden is loaded with seeds ready to sprout, grow, bloom, feed.
during the initial stages of Gold Water Alchemy I shared through the OG Gold Mine, so I will be spending a portion of the spring expanding on and transferring those writings to this platform elucidating further according to the experiential knowledge & wisdom I have acquired over the past couple of years since the last post I made on that earlier blog.
in early April I softly & slowly reopened the shop featuring a new remedy Angel in the Flesh made with Blue Water Lily (aka Blue Lotus) and Damiana. it also includes an essence of Barbados Lily which was the first flower essence I made while living on & stewarding 10 acres in the rural farm town of Osteen, Florida in 2021. the moon was full that day & it was shortly after the spring equinox, so for a tincture of such liminal caliber, this essence is more than fitting.
[CONTENT WARNING for the words that follow : brief mention of death & dying.]
encounters with an angel
in May 2016 my grandmother died exactly 3 months after my birthday and approximately 5 months after she’d said she wanted to make it to / live to experience my birthday one more time. she did make it, though she’d also said she was ready to go — her life had been lived full to the brim, her body was ready to empty all life force energy into the ethers. what kept her tethered to this realm was her children, mainly my father / her firstborn; the one who grieved inconsolably in anticipation of a dreaded transition.
my grandmother’s name is Angela and I inherited plenty from her including a rendition of her name as my middle name, Angely.
years before her passing, I had begun my explorations with a number of flowers, vines, & roots often used for entheogenic expansions. Blue Lotus aka Blue Waterlily was one of several I encountered on this journey.
on a Friday the 13th in May, I prepared myself an infusion of Blue Lotus. I added more flowers than usual, opening myself fully to whatever expressions & impressions the Lily wanted to imbue me with. that day was eerily quiet, I noticed the birds were silent, the squirrels nowhere in sight. after enjoying several cups of the infusion, the urge to dance set upon me as I turned the speaker volume up, playing a variety of Palo music from the island of Kiskeya. Palo is a spiritual sound that is named after the wood & other earth matter which is used to make several of the instruments heard in the tones.
the sway began in my hips and gradually took over my whole body. often when I dance I feel as if possessed by spirits who know exactly what to move when. the energy builds in spirals then crescendos & crashes like a waving whale song rippling through the whole ocean. at a certain point in all the motion, I felt the frequencies rise into my head and by then I didn’t have any control over how I was moving. I was moving & I was crying, weeping actually. if asked in that moment I wouldn’t have been able to explain why. the gyrations and gestures were so vigorous and intense that my legs eventually gave out, causing me to collapse to the floor still weeping. the force concentrated in my head had by then become an ache, a dull pain in my temples.
and there was a presence that was not merely my own.
my instinct upon getting up from the floor was to disconnect the WiFi router, turn off my phone, laptop, and any other electronic device that was nearby. the headache had become extreme and my only relief came from laying in bed ailing, distressed.
24 hours passed with me in this sort of comatose state. the 2nd night was laden with strange sensations and unusual discomforts, but unbeknownst to me something was afoot. the head pains had become a shattering ringing in both ears, and looking at the lights outside the window proved to be nauseating.
what was happening?
opening my eyes again, I saw a figure sitting on the edge of my bed and having experienced this many other times, I knew it was my grandmother. but how? she was miles away in another country. but she spoke to me, saying things that won’t be repeated and other things that inspired me to action — divine instructions all the same. in everything she said, there was the recipe for a remedy that would later be known as Mama Drops.
a lucid dream offering clear direction.
in a stupor of concurring awe, confusion, and disbelief, I dozed off until the early hours of Sunday the 15th when my mother came ringing the doorbell & bearing news — my grandmother had passed away that morning.
and mourn we did, but I knew an Angel had finally begun the ascent she was long ready for.
a formula to support holy communion
this preparation was initially formulated at the beginning of 2023 and the herbs macerated for quite some time in a mixture of organic cane spirits & honey. it’s a strong one made with Damiana found growing wild in Kiskeya; the honey used in the mix is from my beekeeper cousin who also lives in the same countryside.
Angel in the Flesh is simultaneously elevating & grounding through its capacity to activate super sentience, animating both instinct & intuition.
Blue Lotus is a guiding key in this portal potion. continue reading to learn more about this mysterious flower, or visit the website to purchase a bottle of this empowering elixir.
a short-form blue lotus monograph
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